Yeah, I'm blogging at work, okay! But not to worry, my boss doesn't care (I don't think). It sure beats catching up on the latest celeb gossip. I've become so disgusted with myself over that. It's like an obsession! A filthy one at that!
So this morning I'm sitting at my desk helping people when a nice, middle-aged woman that I've seen many times in my building approaches my desk. A visitor. She's just sitting there quietly waiting....So I asked a little bit about her multiple visits. "I own my own business," she says. "Oh, yeah, what's that?" I say back. "I help people with their spirituality--to help people find the goodness in themselves," her again.
She begins to talk (non-stop) about how she's studied physics and religions and her former Jewish backround, the Bible--all of them. Apparently, there's more than one. "Hmm...More than one? What do you mean by that?" I say back. Please keep in mind I get a whole lot of nothing to contribute. Oh, but if you know me, YOU KNOW I will get my turn ;) muahhahah
Anyway, I asked her if she's ever had a spiritual encounter. She said, "sure, what kind? I've had many different kinds." She said she has even encountered JC... I begin thinking to myself. Her-still yappin---and yappin---and yappin---Finally I have to stop her and say, "you encountered Jesus? what was that like?" She said he was fun and made her feel great and was very loving. "Yeah," thinking to myself some more....I had the chance to tell her I studied theology and the Bible, but that's all she got to know about me. I asked her another question relating to Jesus. Then she looked at me and said, "why don't I make him my savior?" I didn't even ask her about that, dude! But she's thought about it. At this point that's only part what I'm thinking. I'm thinking, if this lady encountered Jesus, then why would she doubt he is who he says he is?! I mean, she gave me her answer, a very poor answer by the way. I'll try to get more into that later.
All I'm thinking is if she genuinely believed she encountered Jesus Christ, then that would have to mean he's real. Yes, he is real...Got that covered. Okay, then, if you encountered him in the here and now, then that would have to mean he is STILL exists. And, if he revealed himself to you, then that would have to mean he cares for you and he could even love you. Some of you are probably thinking, "oh, she thought she encountered Jesus, it wasn't him, because when you encounter Jesus, you will know that he is the way, truth and life." Maybe, or it could have been his attempt to draw her into his Goodness. Whatever it was, the fact that she couldn't put a spiritual encounter + Jesus Christ= Truth together is very heartbreaking. I'm not sure if I'm getting my point across very well. For instance, if I encountered Santa Claus I wouldn't care about the way he made me feel, or what others would think, or the fact that I never celebrated Christmas before. Because when you encounter him--that makes him real AND transcendent, right? And if transcendant then that would lead to truth. Is it just me or do I make a lot of sense?
There is so much more to that conversation and why I think she is very wrong, but time does not permit. Afterward I just began to think that I'd rather live passionately for One purpose, for One Person, then live my entire life with this EXTREMELY unclear and ambiguous belief in multiple gods that ultimately confuses people, or me at least! They think they have an answer when they make NO SENSE at all! I know the life and death of Jesus Christ isn't necessarily a rational one- virgin gets prego, gives birth to God incarnate, God-man lives sinless life and dies on cross for the sins of humanity until he returns again in the clouds! That's not rational, that's faith! However, it really beats serving the "inner you." Gross. What the frick does that even mean?! If someone else dares tell me I'm good at my core, I think I'm gonna just punch them in the face (kinda want to right now) and have them tell me that once more. I'm a depraved individual who desperately needs love and mercy extended toward me. Don't get me wrong I really want to be good naturally! Trust me! It would make me feel a lot better about myself! No wonder that philosophy sales so well! Personally, when I don't put my trust in the blood of Jesus I begin to feel a super guilty conscience. For a while, until I ignore it. Why is that? Maybe because I've already had a crazy love encounter with my Jesus (and know better then what I have been doing), or maybe I'm just down right guilty. I like to push the limits...But that's a whole new blog for later ;)
Point of blog: I'd rather give my heart and life to ONE thing. To believe so passionately that I'd give my life for it and to look back on my life and know that I gave it my all--whatever it was. And it just so happens I have experienced Jesus on a deep and profound level that he gets my affections. Sounds intense, but that's just me....
Note: I realize this could be more organized. I'm embarrassed to say Literature was in the title of my major. Thanks all.
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